left this out -

i am fed up
i cant wait for 2008 to end - this may of been my worst year.
humiliation through many different ways will be the end of me.

sometimes i wish i couldnt think. that little voice in my head makes me want to punch myself. i dont get it.
the urge for a sleeping aid is evermore furious.
i do not need this. my thoughts will be the death of me actually.

wake me up when it jan 1st.
please?

oops

i let this go again.

open to anyone - if you think this is to you it probably isnt (unless it is)

i have done nothing
nothing to stop, nothing to aid, nothing to hold back.
the only thing i have done is give you advice
seen as though i like to follow the rules - and i believe that is verbatim - you do not listen to a word i say.
you have got yourself into this mess, please work your way out of it.
you never wanted my shoulder, and im not offering it again.
thanks for trusting me (one of your most secretive of friends that wouldnt tell a soul)
i am bored of you
grow old. die. possibly without me there.

yours disgustedly, j.

(ps. this is the end of you my friend, i cant forgive, i wont forget)

kisses on the wrong cheek

slap it to the other one

i just wanna feel attractive today
i love it but it hurts
i do it because you do it
i'm 'attention deprived' in my honest opinion.
it works for me
i can do it for as long as i want

x marks the scars, eh?

thank you for ignoring me

be careful what you wish for because you just might get it

staring at you
cant be true
hot top/press
think of you less
i never gave up

i wish i grew up a clean kid
i wish i grew up a superstar
always get ruined before you turn legal
thats fine with me

i want to do it
legs eleven/whatever - hidden
i love pain
threshold high

i hate watching people getting persecuted on tv
especially people i hold in high regards

but whatever, i guess i dont have a sense of humour.
haha.

when i grow up;

and so

if i could dream at all, it would be about you. and im not ashamed of it.


i want to say this to someone
i need you to change me
please help me
whoever you may be

corner stop/x one

Look, im going to break it down and spell it out for everyone.

i dont know what im doing with my life at this point
im scared of everything
im waiting for something to happen
its not coming easy
i dont get it

(iwanttotravelinavanwithyoueventhoughyouprobablydontreadthis)

im sorry

i want to fail everything

i want everything
i know im not good for anything

i know i lose

feeling like youre having a heartattack
feeling like everyone of them has given up
feeling so damn scared
it melts together
we all melt together

i wish you could read my thoughts and fall into my dreams at night so i sleep better