ive been watching

everytime i log into this i always forget which email address im using because i have about 5.
and my password is one of two and its 13 letters long.
and yesterday i forgot what i was angry about
short term memory will be responsible for alot of mishaps in the futre y/y?

nothing has changed
i can see that im making it obvious
my hands burn everytime
my eyes hurt everytime
my heart hurts everytime
my jealousy of the unworthy will come through on this note.
i dont think the major will happen before all of us split for 6weeks.
i want it to though
it would be nice
:)

nothing to complain about.
im getting new shoes today :)

for your information

i love my demons because they keep me company.

closer. closer.
we are closer.
closer. closer.
we need closer.

for the past week ive been telling myself that you're just keeping me happy and playing along to my unfortunately obvious passes, but you kind of flipped the tables on friday. thank you for that.
you have now made me more uncertain of myself and what we are. i love that. thsi is definately the change i needed.
let me close the door on the old and concentrate on you and the new.
i dont need the shit they give me, so i'll leave 'em to it.
the only thing you have to promise is to be there everyday and to carry on the way you are.
i will promise you my full heart.

i havent ever been so sure as what i want with you as i have now.
teach me the things i need to.

this heart, i beats for you ?
answer me this though; do you want my heart?

lipstick lullabies

 

cleaned the house just to throw away your mess that you left behind. I'm definitely fed-up of your shit. Thank you for lying to us. again. again we are disappointed.

 

I saw what had happened to him and realised nothing ive been through is as bad has what he's got. when you see something like that, everything goes into perspective. like youve been driving in the rain and only just wiped the window-screen.

i am glad that you finally realised that we're not worth it. she is better for you then any of us back-stabbers and heart breakers. and i hope you realise that that was sarcasm and that i have a sense of distaste in my mouth

the truth is meant to be told                                                          

so if its true it isnt really a rumour, i guess.

please make me strong

make me happy

make me everything please

 

 

we are those kids that dont last, but in their prime, they are legends.

i wish i could be a legend forever.

miserable at best

i need to go to the doctors, but no one i know cares.
we need to meet up and become best friends so then you can be the one that cares and takes me

forever never comes around

i'm back and still alive
but i come with illness
being sick makes you think more
you have to sleep and stay inside

old friends vanish and the new friends stay, if only for a while
old friend doesnt know what to do with my witty replies and cold-hearted words

i wish one girl would stop hitting on my boy

that is the only honesty i can muster up at the moment
sleepy time now

ps. europe hates england tbh, thats why we didnt get anything higher than 14 in eurovision. Its all about politics. we let immigrants into our country, we have saved them from death (see ww1 and ww2), england doesnt care what race you are, but still you hate us.

nothing worse than missing out

i feel my life has come to a standstill
i want things that happen to other people to happen to me

that is all
my mind is at a standstill as well

come together now

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