ive been watching

everytime i log into this i always forget which email address im using because i have about 5.
and my password is one of two and its 13 letters long.
and yesterday i forgot what i was angry about
short term memory will be responsible for alot of mishaps in the futre y/y?

nothing has changed
i can see that im making it obvious
my hands burn everytime
my eyes hurt everytime
my heart hurts everytime
my jealousy of the unworthy will come through on this note.
i dont think the major will happen before all of us split for 6weeks.
i want it to though
it would be nice
:)

nothing to complain about.
im getting new shoes today :)

for your information

i love my demons because they keep me company.

closer. closer.
we are closer.
closer. closer.
we need closer.

for the past week ive been telling myself that you're just keeping me happy and playing along to my unfortunately obvious passes, but you kind of flipped the tables on friday. thank you for that.
you have now made me more uncertain of myself and what we are. i love that. thsi is definately the change i needed.
let me close the door on the old and concentrate on you and the new.
i dont need the shit they give me, so i'll leave 'em to it.
the only thing you have to promise is to be there everyday and to carry on the way you are.
i will promise you my full heart.

i havent ever been so sure as what i want with you as i have now.
teach me the things i need to.

this heart, i beats for you ?
answer me this though; do you want my heart?